The Heart and the Mind

I was so near the pit of despair the other day. I so badly needed a pick-me-up.  And since music is once again dominating my life, I decided to go back to some of the livelier days of my late teens to early adult years, or at least the music I listened to back then.  I decided this because I remember that a great part of those years was filled with confidence and no fear that I could not conquer the world. I haven’t really listened to house music in a while and this is probably because the club scheme here in Manila is so different from what it is in the UK which I loved to bits.  Decided to jump on the bandwagon and listen to David Guetta, also because I like the tune of one of his hits “Titanium”.  Lo and behold when I Googled the lyrics- why, they were quite apt.

Here they are:

You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
you shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away
ricochet, you take your aim
fire away, fire away
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud, not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net ]
fire away, fire away
ricochet, you take your aim
fire away, fire away

you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

I am titanium

I am titanium

Stone hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass

You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

I am titanium

So, this started me down a path of pure house music and I found my mood responding to the point where I really wanted to get up and dance.

I was on a ‘house music high’ for a while. Actually up until around 30 minutes ago.  Then I had a short conversation that blew my mood completely.  Amazing (sarcastic).  A few minutes could change what took two days to get going.  It showed me two things: that my mind can really do so much, and that my heart is a traitor.  And so I need to fortify my heart, teach it to see better, stay out of decisions, and to listen to its good friend, my mind.