Day 1 Part 2

What would I tell him if I felt he wanted to hear truths from me? What haven't I told him. Ok, here goes:

I would tell him that I love him so much. That he haunts my days and nights.  I would tell him that he is like the shadows, always there, something I cannot separate.  I would tell him that I miss him, that I still reach out for him at night. I would tell him that the only moments of peace I had when my dad died where when I was with him. I would tell him that I understand his fear, that I share that, but that I want to try in spite of this. I would tell him I'm sorry for my part in the hurt. I would tell him I pray for my husband, lover, and friend back, the father of my children.

So much...